6aug, k session @ fushionpool.

hi, it's been 1month since i last updated i guess. hmm, shouldn't have anybody still exist here i think. ahaha but its ok, i'll just update to keep my blog alive.:)

its 6am, and ive got 2 papers later on. i haven't slept a wink yet. i guess i'm heading home straight right after the two papers end. wo bu kai xin.:( cuz i'm having running nose. oh my, it just keep dripping non stop, my nose gonna drop off. urgh, cant eat flu med, how shaggggggg. ok look at the date. we were separated for 2 months. time flies right? haha getting over a person like you is easy, its only memories. kkkk dont talk about him.

on a happy note, N's are getting nearer, which means holidays are approaching me too! i need to dye my hair like srsly. right after n's k.:) i need to go shit now, then prepare to go school! ciao!

Sup! It's been quite some time since i last updated. Haha due to my laziness. Ok, the picture above was taken like two weeks ago, with my bbyg. I luv her so much! :) We went to Bugis on that day I think, haha like a bored actually. Um recently, school was fine, life was alright. Nothing much changes, and nothing much affects me though. Well, was shocked by the news that both of them were together. Bbyg bet with me that i'll surely cry when I go home, but i didn't ok! Like for what? I already did that before, and I feel that it's so stupid. A guy can find a girlf so fast after break up its either, he didnt love the girl before or he love the new girlf more than his ex. Whatever it is, i will always remember, being happy is the key, and nothing else. Now, i'm contented with my life cuz of my besties, tyy and bbyg! Hehe! I believe, if God wants me to have boyf, wants me to be loved, a guy will surely appeared at the right timing.:) K bye, i'm so hot, i nidda fan now!

Hi. Recently, my post was all about R. Let me do finish a timeline, and i'll stop thinking, writting, and talking about him. I mean it this time round.

March, is the month we first know each other. I still remember where is the place, and it is Kallang Bahru. You was an really outgoing boy, talkative, noisy, active, was really nice too. We hitted off very well, we could click so well too, talked alot although that's our first time seeing each other. We played daidee, and I played songs through my phone. After that, walked over to bus stop to wait for my bus home, we exchanged number from there. We texted, yes, however no feelings were developed back then. We spent the whole month slacking, and probably nothing else. I could get to see you almost everyday. I still remember, I would send you home twice or thrice every week. And you wouldn't decline. We would slack at your house voideck, chatting happily and laughing.

On a random Friday, Brian had hotel room at USS, and invited us to go. In the hotel room, I could still remember, your phone kept vibrating, cos you was messaging with J. You never neglect your phone. We did so many things there, although I know it wasn't right, but feelings had already developed that time. Even though I felt guilty towards J, but I still can't resist you. I still remember I helped you to patch with her, it's like cutting my heart. As I just couldn't bear to see the guy I like to end up being hers agn, but I still help. Cuz' I know that you love her dearly.

The following day of hotel, you broke up with her. I remember, it's april fool day, which is 1st april. You showed me the message, I felt so sudden. To be honest, I felt happy, because I wanted to have you so much when you was with her. She treat you badly, brothers around said about her, but you ignored and you go for her. I really envy her so much. She gets all your love, your dote, your time and everything. After you broke up with her, we spent much more time together. More quality time, and we were together on the 6th. I still remember where do you ask me, it's at your house level. And everytime, I sent you home or I sent you home, you would say, you can't bear to let me go. That's very sweet. But I can't hear it anymore. I was so happy being with you, initially. First one month, was the happiest day with you. I bet you feel the same way too. We were so sweet, we stick to each other almost everyday. You would tell me you miss me, and you love me randomly, we would talk on phone. Till one day, you told me you gonna work at LAN shop on the 16th. My heart sank. I know that, if you or me went to work, our relationship would definitely be shaken. So yeah, it really goes that way.

From the day you work at lan, I never fails to absent myself from there. I met you up for lunch almost everyday at first, but getting lesser due to I cant wake up on time. I'm not tryna say that i'm very good, noble or what. I just feels that, I never fail in being the duty of your girlfriend. Quarrels start from this month. It's funny to think that, once we quarrel, we never end. I don't know why either. On our first month, we went to Bugis to get your top and bottom. Intend to watch movie, but there's no suitable time slots, so we gave it a miss. And we walked ard Bugis, and went back to lan to find your brothers. That's a very simple first monthsary. I was pissed at first, cuz' I don't expect our first month would be so boring, but after that I think that, it's enough cuz I have you by my side. Anywhere we go, anything we do, its ok. On the 28th, its your b'day. You have bbq at pasir ris park, all your brothers are there for you, included me. I made my own way down there, holding on with your b'day cake. In the end, the cake was spoilt. The strawberries dropped, chocolates melted. I didn't deliberately do it, but I know you were pissed over this. You said, I swing my hand while holding onto it. But did you think for me? From pp, I made my own way all the way to Pasir ris, alone. And, try thinking, will I do this to the cake for my boyfriend? I don't understand. But it's ok. There's so many memories.

It was a very short month, cuz' we broke up on the 12th. However, you left me memories on the 6th, which was our 2nd month. You brought me to Night Safari, cost you a bomb. We took the tram, going ard seeing animals. We had dinner at the restaurant, and watch their fireshow. Exciting much. I still remember, you went to internet to look up for places to go on our anniversary. I really appreciated that very much, it's very sweet of you to do that. I remember the day you broke up with me, it was really fucking sudden. Know what? I really hope that, you'll come back to me, hug me from the back and tell me, "Bee, im just kidding." but well, i am just dreaming.

From the day we broke up till now, it'd been 12days. Time flies to you, but it's really like crawling to me. I know, we were impossible to get back agn. I'll fuck off, I mean it. No matter how you treat me after break up, I will still want you to be happy. We both can find someone else better, in future. Time can heal my wounds. Boy, i loved you once. I'm not gonna love you for the second time, I don't wanna get hurt agn. Guess i've typed enough, takecare boy. You leave me memories, thanks so much.

Know what? There's so many things that happened after this break up. I don't understand why. I just wish that after break up, we can still be friends, I mean like seriously normal friends. It seems impossible, but whatever k. It seems like, i've become the bad person now. No matter what I do, its not enough. No matter what I say, its just rubbish. "Trust is to gain back, not to be said easily." Yes, I agree. But, there's nothing I can do to gain back. Nobody dare to trust agn. I am really sick and tired of explaining. Assume and do whatever you like. It's people mouth, I can't control. It's facts that I still love you, but does that means that I must endure all these? My feelings seems like nobody care. It's okay, really. Fml.